anyw, i miss home like seriously.. i miss my storm boi.. i miss the arguments i had with my 2nd bro.. =S i miss my room, my comfy room i miss the plasma tv, i miss the outings i had with my loves... i miss like every single thing that happened b4 in msia.. =(
prob because im too stressed up.. exam wasnt good so far.. so yeah.. the stress feeling is accumulating up till my brain.. and im soon gonna BURST. :S
ppl must be wondering why the hell i am here during exam period.. lols.. blog is the only way for me to express how i feel.. so here i am.. :) i cant wait to party with my friendsss!!!! plan has been posted up in fbook long time ago and yet i couldnt join them for the past few days =( so, i m SO GONNA enjoy myself to the max after the 1st of JULY!!! karaoke @melb central here i comeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
another thing which i would like to express here is all bout interest..
"if the interest is there, u'll try hard no matter how mny times u've failed" is this true?i wonder.. sometimes im thinking of whether to change my major.. :S taking econs as my major is simply not my interest AT ALL.. to be honest... ppl will ask me.. :" then why dun u change ur major to stg that ur interested in?" oh well, the only thing i can answer is that.. im stuck in the world of biz since f4.. so yeah..not to mention that im interest is all bout investigation, more to bio type like chemicals stuffs.. LOL. i know if i were to change major now, it would be hell troublesome.. so why not stick myself to econs and TRY MY VERY BEST to adapt to it and fall in Love with it???errr.. i need a professional economist to guide me, like seriously.. despite that i have one economist with me, here. *my sis* LOL. too bad we're studying in diff campus, taking diff sub.. so.. screw it.. :S one of my friend was telling me bout how wrong the way i study.. yup, i guess hez so RIGHT... i had like 8 days to study but somehow ntg much goes into my mind.. thats the big prob.. havin so mny days to study but couldnt absorb much.. am i stupid..?am i suitable to study economics?i know im pretty slow when it comes to understanding, but i did try my best to undstd.. some parts just drive me crazy.. :S :S so wad shud i do now?revise constantly?sounds better?or to rush like last min and cramp everything into my brain?LOLs. oh well, i guess the 1st suggestion would be much better uh??LOLs. i know im sucha loser that i dun even know wad i want.. yeap this is absolutely true.. i admit it.. to be honest, i know wad im interested in, but there's no chance for me to step back now.. thus, im stuck.. really really stuck.. i want to score for every sub like how my sis did.. of course.. who doesnt want to score right.?but its just.. arghhh, the way i manage everything is a big prob for me now, i supposed.. i;ve always wanted to be as smart as my broz and sister, but it just failed in a way.. okay i know how slacky i am, i know i shud stop fbooking everyday, i know i shud stop msn-ing like everyday.. but these are the things i can do when im alone in my room, in aussie.. it could be super lifeless without laptop here... LOLs
i know, study hard is the key point.. no point studying hard like a mad gurl without knowing that wad ur studying.. hmm this is really true.. and it happens on me all the time.. i know how much i have strived for, but the outcome is always disappointing.. i want Ds and HDs seriously!! the only way to have high scores is to STUDY SMART STUDY SMART STUDY SMART. sorry to mention it again and again.. cause it really works.. study with understanding is a MUST. to move on.. lols.. hahahahaaha.. exclude subs like manage and marketing, they are more on memorising.. :D again, i dun like memorising, so i choose to understand, but still it failed in a way.. :S god god god can u pls help me????i dun want to give up that easily. but seriously, i have that thought b4, when im super stress and fail to undstd wth im studying bout.. this is really shyt.. but in the end, i chose not to give up :) but i have seriously lost the confident.. oh wait, its more like i dun have the confidence at all.. :S my life is just soo screwed up when it comes to exam, and studies.. god, i need help.. :S i really want my resuls to be good! and i mean it.. wad shud i do.. :S guess im really dumb.. :S
on the other hand, when it comes to celebrities, im no. 1..LOLs cant help it cause thats my interest.. imagine, memorising the song without looking at the lyrics, and this can be done after listening to the song for a few times.. seee..?thats all bout interest.. but nowadays, a degree is hell important to get a job.. so no matter how tough it is, i have to go thru it.. come to think of it, i shud actually feel contented for wad i have now.. stop all the bullshitting and complains.. cause im sure there are mny ppl in this world hu dont have the chance to study.. the video inspired me to study.. but in the end it failed again.. OMG.. i m just so.. zzzzzzzz...
same thing when it comes to feelings.. when there's no interest, its hard to develop feelings.. so yeahh.. everything is about interest!!! OMG i've typed a hell long post.. cause i want to release stress.. so dun blame me..
on the oother note, i've been posting up old picts (if u guys realise), reason is because i;ve been isolating myself.. ever since exam started.. no outings no picts.. :S bear with me okay?will upload picts after exam! promise promise.. :D
below are picts of me and my hommies :Dand not to forget my loves as well.. :D
enjoy!!!!
pls let me pass all my subs :(
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